Faking Christianity, for those Sticky Situations

Sometimes as a non-Christian you find yourself in a situation where you face either having to explain that your not a Christian while someone(s) stare at you as if you’ve just told them your face is made from pudding–OR–you can pretend that you know what they are talking about, while you think about who enters the next round robin for your Mortal Combat tourney. While generally encourage people to open up a dialogue, as an introvert I understand that sometimes it’s just not worth it to you.

This is where I’m here to help. This is a guide to finding a Bible verse without your Christian friends realizing you’ve never opened a Bible.

The situation–You get lost on your way to your intermural kickball team meeting where they are going to choose a captain, a much coveted position that will bring you infamy and glory. The room you walk into happens to be having a Bible study and who’s leading it? Greg, that guy you met through your friend Sarah, who just happens to have abs like Christ and a smile like Marky Mark with or without the Funky Bunch.

imagesHe asks you if you want to join them. You hear yourself agreeing as you set your beer down to take a Bible from him, flirtatiously brushing your hand against his. You were early for the kickball meeting anyway so you have time. You sit down next to Donny who tells you they’re all on Nihemiah 2:14. You look at the Bible, then look up at the happy Christians smiling at you like the beaming rays of Christ Himself are coming out of their faces. And it hits you, if they realize you’re not a Christian they’ll never let you leave. Must blend in, must escape! Don’t Panic. Deep breath. You look at the Bible again. Can’t be that hard. There’s the Old testament and the New testament. N.T. is John, Paul, George, Ringo. So it’s not in there. Nehemia, that sounds like a middle earth character. Must be O.T. Unless it’s in the Apocrypha. But who reads that besides the south and people who hold signs? These people don’t look like they hold signs. Wow, that didactic reasoning my philosophy class was talking about actually does come in handy. FOCUS! They’re catching on. Skim slowly from the beginning of the Bible. You make a look on your face like your basking in the holy wind bursting forth from the flapping pages. Bask in those god winds. It’s also a good idea to give it a sniff. Not like investigating for mold, but like your inhaling the Good Word. That will throw them off the track. Man, you’d think they would put this thing in alphabetical order. Oh no sniffed too long, passed it. Nehemia, got it. What is this 5 point font? What number am I looking for? How long has it been. Great. Now I’m sweating. Say something. ‘Must be glistening for god, hehe’ shit did I really just say that? I think that one laughed, did she laugh? Alright, 2 must be this big number. Then just find this little number. Where is it. fuck this, ‘cough’, point finger blindly, ‘yup here it is. love this one. What? Do I want to read? Oh, no, um, I can only read spanish. yeah, c’est tant pis’.

Finally you look down and actually find it:

 (12) Then I got up during the night, I and a few men with me; I told no one what my God had put into my heart to do for Jerusalem. The only animal I took was the animal I rode. (13) I went out by night by the Valley Gate past the Dragon’s Spring and to the Dung Gate, and I inspected the walls of Jerusalem that had been broken down and its gates that had been destroyed by fire.

The Word of God. Amen.

How to Evangelize A Nihilist: A Response to Christian Guilt.

To take part in this conversation you’ll need to read this piece:

10 Ways To Stop Feeling Guilty Your Friend Is Going To Hell

Don’t worry, its author did a great job of being concise, and making his point clear and direct, so it shouldn’t take long.

Okay, now that you read it.

This that piece a satire, right? This can’t be serious. If it is a spoof, than it’s great, very funny, but I have the feeling it’s not.  If this is actually seriously, then I’ll quit laughing and then start bringing up some issues and questions I have about it. And as someone who’s going to hell, I’m going to help you out on how to save my soul. For lack of time I’m only going to cover a few of his points.

2. Find a church that makes you feel comfortable, rather than challenging your personal faith? Didn’t Jesus challenge his own faith by putting himself into difficult situations and places? How many times was he tempted by the devil, or confronted by pharaohs? Christianity isn’t comfortable. That doesn’t mean evangelizing if you don’t want to. Actually please don’t. We non-Christians hate it. We’d rather see you acting awesome because you love Christ. That will attract us more. When you say, “I’m worried about you going to Hell”–or similar phrases–we hear “I’m judging you, and you’re not good enough for me”. I personally don’t like to have selfish, judging friends. So why would I join a church who does?

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4 (& 1): Yeah, you all should probably stop learning about your own faith. Stop participating in it all together, because from what I understand the less you do the better off you are. Especially the hard-to-understand parts. In fact, throw away—no, burn—that Bible of yours, hop on the internet, and just Google search exactly what you’re looking for to make yourself feel good. Cause those parts where Jesus hung out with the ‘sinners’ and loved them might be confusing.

Confession: I love when I engage a Christian in a conversation and as a Nihilist I know more about their religion’s history and current events than they do. I know it’s bad to be smug, but it gives me a tingly giggles inside. I know it’s a fault of mine. But when someone is trying to shove ‘God’s love’ down your throat it feels good to stump them, and to try and de-evangelize them.

Want to impress me? Know your shit. And I’m not talking just facts, be able to express what YOU love YOUR religion. Not why I should love Your religion. Show me your passion; show me why you think it’s worth your time.

7. Totally agree, explore other religions. Because Christians I’ve met, and read, have a very strange perception of what Buddhism is about. Buddhists don’t block it out. It’s not about ignoring humanities natural inclination to judge others it’s about accepting it and then acting in a way of compassion. Show it first for yourself for being flawed, and then to others because they are also humans who are also flawed. Buddhism is a very psychological religion that teaches the connection between everything that exists. Like Christianity, it is a beautiful religion that can benefit a lot of people.

How to evangelize

8. Oh my Buddha, yes! You’ve finally gotten it! Create your own reality. If you believe in God: Yes go to Church, yes read the Bible; No, don’t believe in everything they say. No, you don’t have to take it literally. The authors didn’t intend for it all to be literal, but they did intend for you to derive great meaningful truths from it. (To understand the evolution of myth in history i recommend this book). Everyone needs to know and create their own understanding of the universe.  Talking to other people who are asking the same questions can be helpful. So take other people ideas into consideration and then develop your own understanding.

Does talking about religion make you feel like you should be evangelizing? Instead of evangelizing to me, just talk to me. I love thinking and talking about how the universe works, the meaning of everything, and in the interplay of religion in people’s lives. There are a lot of Christians and non-Christians who like to do this. Because I respect you as a person, I would love to hear what you think. But on the other side I’d also love to share what I think. But I can’t really share if you’re telling me I’m wrong before I open my mouth. We might not have that dissimilar of ideas if we could both listen to each other.

10. Why are you worried about your friends at the pearly gates anyway? Shouldn’t you be more worried about yourself there? Now, I don’t believe in divine judgment, but from what I understand of it, it’s personal. You’re probably not going to get there and find God asking, “Did your neighbors love their neighbors?” The way to stop feeling guilty about your friends going to hell is to stop being a busy body, take care of your own soul, and show love to the souls around you.

Like I said before, if the love of God will develop your life and mind in ways that make you a better, happier person I will see it. I will see it glowing out of you. I’ve met Christians with that glow; and damn is it beautiful. I’ve also met Muslims, Buddhists, and Atheists with that glow. And those are the people I want to talk to about faith and religion. Because I see that it’s working for them. BUT, no matter what theology of philosophy you’re toting, if you are being a jerk that glow dims.

So shine on friends.  Believe in what you will, I’ll try to show compassion anyway and I hope you’ll show compassion back.

#Prayingfor Who?

A factory in Texas exploded not even a week after the bombing in Boston. A friend on facebook made a comment about the differences in reactions that people had to these two events.

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It got me thinking. Why are the responses so different? Both are tragic and unavoidable events where several people were killed or injured. As the person above points out the fatalities of Texas are technically worse:
“Officials put the death count at anywhere between five and 15 and the number of injured at 160. The search for victims and two to three missing volunteer firefighters continued amid a scene of shocking devastation.”

You’d think they’d elicit similar responses, but they didn’t. Social media basically came to a halt once the Boston Marathon news came out, but for Texas only a smattering of #prayfor were released. It was more like a sprinkling compared to a hailstorm of condolences.

Why did Boston have a higher virility rate? What is it that makes us respond with sympathy and compassion for one event over the other? Here are three ideas that I had:

  1. Timeliness

While both events are tragic and shocking, Boston was more shocking simply because it came first. There has been a slight calm since Newtown. Some high profile rape cases, but nothing on the same level as a bombing. We had built back up our reserve of ‘shock’ emotion related to stressful events. But after Boston we used it up again. So by the time the Texas explosion occurred we’re kind of ‘shocked out’. I’m sure there is some psychological term or theory on this that would tie my point into a neat bow. But I don’t know what it is (flooding?); I’d love to hear it.

  1. Cause

As the facebook convo points out: there is a difference between a tragedy that occurs out of human maliciousness and one that occurs out of human error. Nobody wanted the accident in Texas to happen. Nobody planned for it. Somewhere down the line, one or more mistakes were made which resulted in an explosion. Someone will probably be faulted, but morally there isn’t really a person to blame.

As for Boston, someone wanted and planned for it. And that brings up a lot of personal and communally moral questions:

Why did they do it? What would cause someone to want to do it? Is there something I can do to make the people around me not want to bomb things? What is it in the psyche of someone that would bring them to that point of anger? And, is there a part of me that can potentially reach the same point?

       3. Interspecial Guilt

While it makes us wonder about the fragility of the human psyche. I think we also feel apologetic/sympathetic because it was directly and deliberately caused by another human being. We feel some sort of failure as a species that one of our own was able and willing to cause harm. And by changing our status and tweeting how sorry we feel we are asserting our own morality as if saying, “I would never do something like that. I’m a moral person because I can sympathize with your situation.” It’s almost like a confirmation of our social contract. Someone broke the code of ‘don’t kill me, I won’t kill you’ So now we need to take time to rebuild that communal trust.

But in the end

Why bother even thinking about this, really? What benefit is there? Well I can’t help but think that maybe we can find some sense of communal morality if we look for patterns in how we treat other people in crisis situations. Maybe it’s possible to better understanding what we believe is socially right and wrong. Not necessarily in terms of good and evil, but mutually beneficial. And also hopefully we can open up a dialogue with those pesky questions that events like these bring up. That way we can figure out our trouble areas so we can improve on how we interact with each other.

I could be wrong about all of this. If I am please feel free to argue against any of them, or if you have any reason’s you’d add I’d love those comments too.

Jesus VS. Superheroes p. 2: Dr. Manhattan

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The lines blur between good and evil in Alan Moore’s Watchmen as each hero characterizes a slightly different philosophy. While differing, they share the same mission—salvation, or in secular terms, self-actualization. Through these savior figures, Watchmen allows us to dive into modern interpretations of how we can transcend evil. This becomes evident in the similarities found when comparing the life, death, and resurrection of Christ to the life, death, and (the usual) resurrection of comic heroes. What makes Watchmen theologically relevant is not only that it puts you in the point of view of the hero, but that it also provides the viewpoint of how society reacts to the hero. This does three things for the reader: first, we gain insight on the flaws in our current salvation symbols. Second, It provides a context as to how the interpretation of those symbols change overtime. And third, by gaining the first two insights we can then place a personal value on the effectiveness of those symbols to create a less violent, more connected, society.

To demonstrate these points I’m going to look at Alan Moore’s character, Dr. Manhattan, who is a savior archetype as well as a nihilist. Moore switches p.o.v. between Dr. Manhattan, Laurie (his girlfriend), and society. This creates a clearer picture of how society sees God and how God might think of humanity.

1. Problem with Current Symbols.

In response to Jon’s newly gained perfection, society wants to use him as a weapon of war. Moore refers to this sentiment as ‘omnipotence by association’ (Dr. Manhattan: Superpowers and the superpowers, p. III). Perhaps out of a desire to help society, he does as the government asks. As the clock ticks towards nuclear war, society increasingly relies on the idea that Dr. Manhattan will save them. He becomes a crutch so that society no longer feels the need to take any real action towards peace or saving themselves because God is on their side. Instead, from their faulty ‘omnipotence by association’ reasoning, society gets cocky and partakes in risky behavior that puts the world on the brink of nuclear destruction. Moore is portraying that because of our pride, we’ve created God in our image—one that will naturally be interested in our interests. This isn’t inherently a bad thing, except that within ‘omnipotence by association’ the person, or society, assumes that their agenda or goals are more important, or better, than that of others both between different cultures or societies and between humanity and other species and creations.

In the Christian tradition God loves humanity more than itself so that the one and only son of that deity was sacrificed for our benefit. There are many theories on how Jesus saves our soul including, but not limited to, ransom and substitutionary model. In Atonement and Violence, those arguing for variations on these models show that each theory has it’s own benefits in creating a moral society with varying levels of commitment from it’s subscribers. Many interpretations tend to be relaxed on personal involvement which is criticized as causing social conflicts. Jesus also played the role of scapegoat for our sins in order for us to achieve salvation. In order to appease the ‘lack of participation’ criticism there needs to be a call to action. The issue we are looking at is a reactionary phase of salvation. Daniels points out that in the substitutionary model, taking up the cross doesn’t make sense

“If the role of the cross in atonement was to appease the wrath of God, then taking up our cross as disciples would imply that we are to daily take up the instrument through which god’s wrath is nullified. That would make little or no sense because substitutionary atonement is dependent first up on the purity of Christ as a worthy sacrifice or substitution for the sins of humankind, and second the theory implies that the death of Christ has finally appeased God’s wrath and thus no further satisfaction is necessary.” (Atonement and Violence p.127).

In this atonement theory that forms a lot of the beliefs of American Christians, no further action is needed to achieve salvation (Ibid). We can dust off our hands after saying, ‘Jesus is the one, baby’. This neglects His good works that we are supposed to mimic. After sacrificing Jesus, a predominant lesson was lost—what are we supposed to do afterwards? Without changing after the sacrifice we are still the same people acting in sin (acting against God). Dr. Manhattan broke this cycle. He understood that being a sacrifice wouldn’t change anything, or would only be a temporary fix. Moore acknowledged this commonly articulated flaw and demonstrates the existential transition from believing in a personal God that saves us into the idea of having to save ourselves. This is why Dr. Manhattan leaves the world. Instead of being a symbol of self-actualization, humanity used him as a scapegoat for inaction. By leaving he removes that temptation so that people will create their own fate and morality.

2. Evolution of Symbols

In order for symbols of salvation to be effective in their current culture they must evolve naturally. Moore’s interpretation of salvation starts with the familiar substitutionary model of atonement where the savior dies in order to cleanse us of our sins for nothing in return. He demonstrates how transferring this same system of reasoning to politics leads to social violence. Then he offers a different look at the same symbols that includes what a lot of contemporary theologians are tasking for—more participation. In Atonement and Violence, T. Scott Daniels argues that “humans are competitive rivals who mimetically imitate one another because we seek the same object, goal, or agenda. We do not know what to desire, so to find out we watch the people we admire and imitate their desires.” (Daniels p.130). Both Jesus and Dr. Manhattan are not meant to be scapegoats but models of perfection that can be learned from.

Daniels keeps God present but asks that people emphasize the meaning behind Jesus’ life rather than having a theology that focuses on His death and resurrection. Moore demonstrates the same shift in atonement theology by having Dr. Manhattan physically remove himself so that people have to act for themselves. Laurie comes to the realization that humanity is going to end itself because it puts its trust in a god that doesn’t care. And humanity has no one to blame but themselves. Moore is making a nihilistic claim for god. He toys with humanities pride at being special or chosen by writing a myth that portrays the idea that the life force that drives us all–call it God, Allah, or Sally–does not care about humanity any more than it does dinosaurs or polar ice caps. It’s all equally important and not important. According to Dr. Manhattan, the universe is simply acting and reacting. He questions the logic that imposing a conscious favoritism for humanity on God makes it true. But does that make religion not important? Is God dead? Not in the slightest.

J: “Thermo-Dynamic miracles…events with odds against so astronomical they’re effectively impossible…and yet, in each human coupling, a thousand sperm vie for a single egg. Multiply those odds by countless generations, against the odds of your ancestors being alive; meeting; siring this precise son; that exact daughter… until your mother loves a man she has every reason to hate, and of that union, of the thousand million children competing for fertilization, it was you, only you, that emerged. To distill so specific a form from that chaos of improbability, like turning air to gold…that is the crowning unlikelihood.”

L: “My birth, if that’s a thermodynamic miracle…you could say that about anybody in the world!”

J: “Yes. Anybody in the world. But the world is so full of people, so crowded with these miracles that they become commonplace and we forget…I forget. We gaze continually at the world and it grows dull in our perceptions. Yet seen from another’s vantage point, as if new, it may still take the breath away. Come… dry your eyes, for you are life, rarer than a quark and unpredictable beyond the dreams of Heisenberg; the clay in which the forces that shape all things leave their fingerprints most clearly.” (Ch. IX p. 26-28)

Moore tears down the concept of a personal God, but he doesn’t leave the reader in a state of deflated existential isolation. Instead he provides small adjustments in our generally accepted theology to call into question why we aren’t more peaceful. Instead, he demonstrates that nihilism is not a curse word; it can be a call to action. We could view everything as meaningless, just like atoms bouncing off one another in mere chemical reactions. Or we can do as both Daniels and Moore propose: Rather than relying on God to do the work for us, we should use them as an example of how to mimic their good actions to become self-actualized humans.

3. Determining Value

Every atonement theory has it’s own strengths and weaknesses. Moore dives head first into humanities fear of ontological estrangement, by asking the audience what is worse: having no God at all, or a God that doesn’t care about us?

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This is not a matter of destroying God, rather than the idea that no one can tell you how to be saved. It is ultimately up to the individual to determine their own salvation by interpreting those life, death, and resurrection stories that are heavily imbedded in western culture. You have to push to become the hero (take up your cross) by understanding what you believe is good and evil and then acting on those beliefs. If we look at prophets or heroes as symbols to model to reach salvation, it becomes an action word that doesn’t necessarily require us to believe in any one over another. Instead, we open them up for interpretation so that someone who has an issue with the mythology in the Bible is still able to find moral value within it. While Daniels is using Christianity and Moore, Nihilism, they both come to the same conclusion, acting on behalf of your own salvation will lead to a more peaceful, or at least more responsible, society.

Music, Religion, & Tea: Part 3—Connie Hong from Reviving Cecilia

From the moment I heard Reviving Cecilia, to the moment I met Connie Hong, there is one distinct theme that comes across: genuineness.

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Her lyrics come off as straightforward and yet they intrigue the listener with decorations of metaphors and similes that keep people guessing what they are really about. There is a beautiful depth to the clean sound that also comes across in Connie’s personality. She is not just an artist, not just a Christian, not just a teacher, or a designer. She is a complex, yet straightforward woman.

Connie is creative and aesthetic in both sound and sight. The beauty of her creativity is not just in her vision, but also in her brazenness that for continually improvement and growth.

There comes a time in every person’s spiritual journey that they have to decide what kind of community you want to be surrounded by. A good church is one that allows for expression of who you are and helps you to better understand yourself and others. While looking for that community, Connie followed the guidance of her mother who told her that denomination doesn’t matter. Instead she focused on finding a place that shared her core values, which include a balance of theology and spirituality, “I’m very emotional about my faith, but I also know that emotions are very fleeting…sometimes what I feel isn’t true. That’s why that knowledge and logic part is good. Even though it feels like God is far away, that doesn’t mean that’s the case.”

That variance between faith and action usually evokes a struggle in how to live a good life; it’s never cut and dry. “What’s good is going into the direction of Him, bad is when you turn away. That’s the simple way to look at it, but it’s so hard to live that simple life… our lives get clouded by distractions–is it something that God wants or what I want? I’m still learning and struggling with it.”

This struggle hasn’t stopped Connie. Her faith fuels her courage to act towards her goals while understanding that what happens is in God’s hands. “My hope is that my purpose is to bring about new ideas or to expose people to something that’s really beautiful and new…something I’ve created. I think I get frustrated with some of the things I see or the music I hear that is not very good (in terms of quality)—or is purposeless. Part of me hopes I can overshadow that or show something in a different direction of that common occurrence of mediocrity. Just trying—even if I don’t achieve it–I find purpose in trying.”

Reviving Her Lyrical Style

As the understanding of her purpose has matured, Connie has been able to push herself in her faith and in her music. Originally named Consider the Raven, the founding band members shared common ground in terms of their faith, playing their first shows at churches and non-profit venues.   When a few of the original band members left, what developed was Reviving Cecilia. “It was never my intention to start a “Christian” band and we never labeled ourselves as such, but I guess it just naturally turned into that, due to the nature of what our songs were about and what we all stood for, collectively as a group.”  Her new band had more religiously diverse members. With that change, the expression of her faith evolved. The expression of her personal beliefs is less overt. Since they were communing with more diverse audience, her lyrics became more figurative as her faith took on a more metaphorical expression.

“It’s a song about loneliness and calling out for help in midst of that loneliness, and that false sense of security that we can do it on our own… But ultimately that character is calling out for help. It’s kind of a selfish cry though, it’s passive aggressive like ‘I didn’t outright ask you for help but you should have helped me anyway,’–which is sometimes how we are.”

I was my cradle, my own open hand
Weaned myself from broken sores you wouldn’t understand
I was my hymnal, my own marching band
Pushed away the windows until I could no longer see you stand

CHORUS
Come like Elijah, down, down
Come like Elijah
Where were you when I needed someone
Come like Elijah, down, down,
Come like Elijah
Where were you when I needed you

Is this the end where I see all the suffering
Turned to good use but I’m held only by a string
Is this where we begin to look more like ourselves
No longer punished in the reason that we fell

“At the time, I was having a really hard time with church and what my view on it was, and how people in general view Christianity and Christians. Even in the Christian community there is a lot of anti-religion sentiment. And I wondered what that meant [In relationship to how it was when the religion started, how different we might look in comparison]. I don’t know if religion is dead necessarily, but it definitely seems to have been beaten down and molded into something different. Religion is the man, and the death, the murderer is the world.”

Perhaps his family had a wife, a mother to three
Or was he a child of one who left him with uncertainty
Of who he would become, just like mine did to me
Or was he certain of what his fate would be

Oh….

And the bruises on his face will show
The fight he gave we’ll never know
The cuts and burns were from the ground
To where no one had cared to carry him down

Faith will always be expressed in her lyrics. There is a beauty in being able to universalize it, and using it to open up discussion in ways that believers and non-believers can meet on a common ground.

Music and art have a way of helping people understanding themselves better. That’s the goal with her new solo project. Connie has been able to confront her doubts and challenges creatively and has found her faith to be just as strong throughout the many changes and developments. “This newest project is full of thoughts I express that were too personal to give to the band. I was challenged by writing for myself. Anytime I’ve written or performed there were other people on stage. It reaffirmed that this is my journey. It’s my love letter to God, but it’s an honest letter– full of intimate thoughts of anger confusion, and frustration towards God, but also including my joy and affection for Him.  People might even question what I believe when they hear my new songs, but it’s all a part of the journey.  The moments where I’ve felt the most pain and sensed the worst cases of loneliness or doubt only made me stronger coming out of it.  Writing these songs and starting this project challenged me to depend on Him and not other people to be my crutch, which I realized I’ve done a lot in the past.”

So how will this solo project affect Reviving Cecilia? “With Reviving Cecilia, I wrote every song. What happened when I wrote for the solo project is that it gave me that outlet to give the other band members more freedom. Since then, a couple other band members have written songs and have come in with their ideas, and it’s been a different dynamic for that reason. I’m hoping we can focus on writing as a band and as a team.”

Connie Hong

I am definitely excited to hear her solo album when it comes out and to see how Reviving Cecilia evolves from the creative change. In the meantime, you can listen to Thin Air EP. I also encourage you to check them out on facebook. If you want to see them live, they have a show coming up on February 21 at Swallow Hill Music.

Bonus: Check out her amazing “Sings the Sparrow” design work on Etsy!

Diana Vreeland, Quote

 

“You Don’t Have to Be Pretty. You don’t owe prettiness to anyone. Not to your boyfriend/spouse/partner, not to your co-workers, especially not to random men on the street. You don’t owe it to your mother, you don’t owe it to your children, you don’t owe it to civilization in general. Prettiness is not a rent you pay for occupying a space marked ‘female’.” Diana Vreeland